Today I met with an old friend whom I respect and am very fond of. She advised me not to laugh out too loud because that smacks of insanity and ‘normal’ people don’t do that. I wasn’t sure how to take that. I know she means well and is looking out for me. She explained that only those who have suffered trauma or a bad shock do that. Well spot on, I have suffered a huge amount of trauma in a short space of time, all life changing and not for the better, so yep hands up. She told me that the first time she saw me after thirty years and before I had confided my story she could detect that I had been deeply affected by my suffering.
First I was a bit upset; is it that obvious just from the way I laugh that I am ‘not quite right in the head’? Is there a problem with laughing loud, is it a sure sign of insanity?? Is this yet another cultural thing? Another we don’t do this in HK thing. To be honest I don’t really care what people think of me, especially strangers but it did make me a bit self-conscious. Whenever I laughed at something she said, my friend nodded in approval and say, yes that’s right, like that.
To be perfectly honest I’d rather be in hysterics than in the throes of depression unable to even get out of bed.
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