Category Archives: coping with break ups
Wish
Wish
I could bottle pain
watch it sail away
capture sadness
let it soar
gather disappointment
see it burn
seek selective amnesia
sieve away the bad
rationalise persuade
erase
yet in the core of my very being
the dull aches keeps throbbing
robbied fobbed off
powerless defenceless
for being mere human
failing to live up to expectations
imperfect flawed unworthy
Wish
Still
Still I believe in Love
in her power to heal
kiss better the gaping
wound savaged by barbed
wire twisted knife deep into
the core of my being i never
knew a heart could break
literally but i felt it crack
when you would not look
me in the eye
Still I do not regret our Love
I hold onto the good
No one can take the memories
Our yesterdays shared history
No not even you
Nor the ending
Or your I don’t care fuck
Still I believe in Love
Poem a day challenge #16 Mirror
Mirror mirror on the wall
who’s the saddest of us all
Mirror mirror on the wall
whose reflection
unrecognisable
blank stare
dead eyes
corpse like
hint of familiarity
souless
Mirror mirror on the wall
who’s the loneliest of us all
Poem a day challenge #15 Opposites
Tasted delicious euphoria deep deep sorrow
surrounded friends family weary body soul dragging
scaled Mt. Optimism all I wanna is to die blessed relief
beautiful smiling bride bitter divorcee
essential part of happy family thrown out with the trash recycling not required
jonathon livingston seagull soaring free crashed spectacularly wing lopsided grounded
licking wound gazing longingly up
will she ever fly again
scale the heights of delight
look down upon
world of goodness
restore faith in humanity
just a blip unlucky
gonna be ok kid
One day you’re gonna fly high high above the clouds
leave the sorrow behind
healed
Poem a day challenge#14 finale
Different kinda pain
for me on this my 21st wedding anniversary
(thanks go to Andrew Urquhart, fellow blogger for suggesting the title)
feeling kinda blue wanna
drown in the ocean of forgetfulness
resolutely slam that door full
speed ahead to infinity and
beyond
how come you can wave the
‘past’ goodbye with such
abandon glee no trace of
sadness sprinting to embrace
future
Did it mean nothing to you
marriage me us our
love i was there for the
duration good bad ugly
absurd
Different kinda pain
sixth year alone cross your
mind that summer’s day the
eighth of eighth month
lucky
This time tears all
cried out no searing paralysing
jab just dull lingering ache
hunkers down to fight another
day
I will remember our happy
union till last breath not
relegate to just another
day for it meant the world to
me
Different kinda pain
Shouldn’t but does
melancholy
Gorgeous is a little melancholic today, suddening realising that this day 21 years ago she was a beautiful bride in plum silk cheung sam sitting on the love of her life’s knee to take their wedding photo. It was the best day of her life followed closely by that early morning half a year later when her beautiful baby came into this world. Her angel and shining light. She was beaming from deep within and so was he.
Alas the fairy tale didn’t last; the princess turned into a middle aged cancer survivor/divorcee living with depression and nursing a broken heart literally and emotionally. Rejection has hit her hard, to the very core of her being and she has had to dig deep, grit her teeth and go on.