please pass the salt btw i dont love you anymore haven’t for the last three years i’d like out please would you like to add anything to the shopping list i’ll move into the spare room we can be housemates after all we have both been good parents lovely dinner dear thanks for cooking what […]
Category Archives: Dealing with emotions
Wish
Wish
I could bottle pain
watch it sail away
capture sadness
let it soar
gather disappointment
see it burn
seek selective amnesia
sieve away the bad
rationalise persuade
erase
yet in the core of my very being
the dull aches keeps throbbing
robbied fobbed off
powerless defenceless
for being mere human
failing to live up to expectations
imperfect flawed unworthy
Wish
Poem a day challenge #15 Opposites
Tasted delicious euphoria deep deep sorrow
surrounded friends family weary body soul dragging
scaled Mt. Optimism all I wanna is to die blessed relief
beautiful smiling bride bitter divorcee
essential part of happy family thrown out with the trash recycling not required
jonathon livingston seagull soaring free crashed spectacularly wing lopsided grounded
licking wound gazing longingly up
will she ever fly again
scale the heights of delight
look down upon
world of goodness
restore faith in humanity
just a blip unlucky
gonna be ok kid
One day you’re gonna fly high high above the clouds
leave the sorrow behind
healed
Different kinda pain
for me on this my 21st wedding anniversary
(thanks go to Andrew Urquhart, fellow blogger for suggesting the title)
feeling kinda blue wanna
drown in the ocean of forgetfulness
resolutely slam that door full
speed ahead to infinity and
beyond
how come you can wave the
‘past’ goodbye with such
abandon glee no trace of
sadness sprinting to embrace
future
Did it mean nothing to you
marriage me us our
love i was there for the
duration good bad ugly
absurd
Different kinda pain
sixth year alone cross your
mind that summer’s day the
eighth of eighth month
lucky
This time tears all
cried out no searing paralysing
jab just dull lingering ache
hunkers down to fight another
day
I will remember our happy
union till last breath not
relegate to just another
day for it meant the world to
me
Different kinda pain
Shouldn’t but does
Shouldn’t but does
Shouldn’t bother me but
does you going off to Bulgaria
see a stranger you’ve fallen
in love with prepared to fly all those miles
hire a car other end
All these years I have been here
next to you in bed on the couch
waiting yearning for
you to
communicate
acknowledge
validate my
existence worth sharing
yourself
want to know
who
I am
But
you
never did
Shouldn’t bother me but
does how you effortlessly
walked away from the past no lingering
backward glance as if those eighteen years
never happened mattered
Are you a good actor
or you really don’t care
devoid of emotions just relieved
rid of irritating inconvenience
What does she offer that I
can’t
another delusion infatuation
You
may one day come to
your senses mourn the
loss of one who
loved you without reservation
seek and find her
gone
For she
will have changed
stronger pain is an
effective teacher no
longer needs nor loves
you
Made her live a Lie
crucified everything
she
believed
valued
Shouldn’t bother but
does
you
loss (2)
like days blown by autumn leaves
swept by the breeze the pebble
sinking to the bottom of the sea
snow melting into the ground
memories edited distorted collected
full circle we have come nothing new
under the sun raging crashing waves
no hidden secret buried deep on the
ocean floor loss smiles beckons a
long lost friend reunited I embrace
thee cease be for you are the fabric
of life men come and go and stuff
what sifts through the giant colander
of time space is what’s worth
holding on family mates life itself
how
stopped asking why
futile
moved on to
how
everybody says move on let go
how
words are easy
meaningless
how
do you get all the pain out
forget the hurt accept loss
begin a new life not mourn the old
how
hold onto the good memories
not permit the end to taint
wring the last drop of love dry
how
Poem a day challenge#13 Agree to disagree
We could never agree to
disagree meet in the
middle now we don’t
meet at all
Cancer or Divorce? Husband or Daughter?
You know those games where you are confronted with a dilemma, if there was only one space left in the lifeboat or hot air balloon, who would you choose to save, husband or child? I am assuming all parents would say child without hesitation. It is our maternal/paternal instincts to protect our young. The adult can look after himself whilst the child cannot and his life hasn’t even properly began yet.
And given a choice between cancer and divorce I’d opt for the former any day. Why? You may be shocked by my choice. Cancer is a physical disease which if caught early enough can be treated. There is also a time scale to all the gruelling treatment, you know when the 6 cycles of chemotherapy will end, the 3 weeks of intense radiotherapy Mon to Fri. You can work out accurately to the day when all this will be over.
On the other hand, how long your stay at Heartbreak Hotel is uncertain. Will you ever check out completely? Maybe you will leave and return for a brief visit now and again.
paler shades of love
love comes in
many pale shades hues
as does pain and hate
grey areas galore
messy pastel colours
