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Shouldn’t but does

 
Shouldn’t but does
 
Shouldn’t bother me but
does you going off to Bulgaria
see a stranger you’ve fallen
in love with prepared to fly all those miles
hire a car other end
 
All these years I have been here 
next to you in bed on the couch
waiting yearning for
you to
communicate
acknowledge
validate my
existence worth sharing
yourself
want to know
who
I am
 
But
you
never did
 
Shouldn’t bother me but
does how you effortlessly
walked away from the past no lingering 
backward glance as if those eighteen years
never happened mattered
 
Are you a good actor
or you really don’t care
devoid of emotions just relieved
rid of irritating inconvenience
 
What does she offer that I
can’t
another delusion infatuation
 
You
may one day come to
your senses mourn the
loss of one who
loved you without reservation
seek and find her
gone
 
For she
will have changed
stronger pain is an
effective teacher no
longer needs nor loves
you
 
Made her live a Lie
crucified everything
she
believed
valued
 
Shouldn’t bother but 
does
you
 
         
 

Out of body (3)

 
Pungent overwhelming reeks of decay
the decomposing hollow eyed corpse lay
billy no mates in a dusty corner forgotten invisible but
for the army of maggots merrily tunnelling in and out the
cavities as if it was disneyland florida
 
She looking down wanted to scream
‘can’t you see me lying rotting away
at least have the decency to give me a proper burial
send off
don’t just trip over me and curse’
 
But deaf blind and dumb they ignored her
as if she was dead and
carried on with their lives
the father getting into more debt
the girl plotting to leave home
the worms crawling all over the screen
 
No wonder cats howled at full moon

into the light …

Chink of white glittery light peeping tom sunlight
veranda steps robin orange breast alights
swaying bird feeder black cat darts across lawn 
chased by puss in white boots mischievous out
of the shadows into the light I have arrived at this
place of acceptance late used to being 
shouted at screwed up you
touched me gently on the arm
i felt
love
 
Heal the wound hurt little girl unheard
unseen surprised by
love
 
Out of the shadows into the light I
have arrived at this place of acceptance
compassion I have bucketfuls
for myself I must learn the lesson
rinse out brainwashing to meet own 
needs selfish gave all discarded 
found myself empty lost
 
 
Out of the shadows into the light I
have arrived at this place of acceptance

loss (2)

like days blown by autumn leaves
swept by the breeze the pebble
sinking to the bottom of the sea
snow melting into the ground
memories edited distorted collected
full circle we have come nothing new
under the sun raging crashing waves
no hidden secret buried deep on the
ocean floor loss smiles beckons a
long lost friend reunited I embrace
thee cease be for you are the fabric
of life men come and go and stuff
what sifts through the giant colander
of time space is what’s worth
holding on family mates life itself

how

stopped asking why
futile
moved on to
how

everybody says move on let go
how

words are easy
meaningless

how
do you get all the pain out
forget the hurt accept loss
begin a new life not mourn the old

how
hold onto the good memories
not permit the end to taint
wring the last drop of love dry

how

Poem a day challenge#13 Agree to disagree

We could never agree to

disagree meet in the

middle now we don’t

meet at all

Poem a day challenge#11 Pls pass the salt dear

paler shades of love

love comes in
many pale shades hues
as does pain and hate
grey areas galore
messy pastel colours

Every time i say goodbye

Every time i say goodbye i die a little

same ritual we embrace on platform 3b

whisper words of love you embark

with your bags graphics folder

home

to where i am not

to your life and

my heart breaks a little

yet i smile wave

for i don’t want to make it harder baby

so i put on my brave mum face

and i make the long way home

with less bounce back to my room

in a shared house wondering why

you and i have to always say goodbye cos

every time i die a little

Control freak

if you are right

then i must be wrong

and that cannot be

if you talk sense

then i can’t get my way

and that cannot be

if you are smart

that makes me look bad

and that cannot be

if you are sane

then i must be mad

and that cannot be

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